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The last week or so has been a little rough. 🎭 The last few days of my #JanuaryWhole30 did not go well. I’d been sick and eating very little, I was tired and having a hard time preparing food, my husband was out of town and I was home alone with two tiny kids, and I ended up spending close to a week struggling with constant nausea. 🎭 It’s taken me days to get my body feeling good again. I just felt well enough to exercise on Sunday. But of course, through all of this, in the back of my mind my ED was thinking “Hey, I didn’t eat for days! I bet I lost a ton of weight!” 🤦🏻♀️ 🎭 Surprise: I did NOT lose a ton of weight. In fact, a month of Whole 30 barely moved the needle on my scale. And by the end of the month, I was no longer feeling good about eating. I was feeling limited, restricted, and depressed. 🎭 I mentioned in my diet history post (link in bio) how disingenuous it is for Whole 30 to insist it’s not a “diet.” It is. And while there are people who can follow the diet and maintain good health, what I learned in January is that right now, I’m not one of them. 🎭 It’s still important for me to lose some weight. My current weight isn’t healthy, but neither is falling into my old patterns of drastic schemes, starvation and obsession. 🎭 Health, hunger signals, hydration — these are the things I need to focus on. Cutting out whole food groups isn’t the right solution for me. 🎭 One thing that DID work for me on Whole 30: Not getting on the scale. I get easily discouraged by slow progress. It might be time to take the batteries out of my scale.